The thoughts of a twenty one year old insane girl as she battles against angst, overeating, waking up in time for class, and staring too long at the sun.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
This overwhelming exhastion and underwhelming success must be diminished. I cant take it. Im too tired for it. Must we resort to 'mandatory'? Must i throw away the pieces? Sometimes i feel like the highest person on the mountain, and then i feel like the lowest speck on the bottom of life's shoe. All this rollercoastering is causing this overwhelming urge just to sleep my life away. I yearn to stay awake and try to change it but it is impossibly strong against my will. Theres no changing it. Only enduring. So i will lay here in this cold, dark room, and contemplate jumping off the mountain.
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Lord Woman. You sure are melancholy! Life is not so bad, you could be in Haiti right now. Love you! Mom
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