Honestly I hate my life so much right now its unbearable

Father's day makes me bitter and sweet

Sometimes...

Sometimes i feel so confused. I wish i could understand people... but i am pretty sure none of them understand themselves.

Ok I am honestly starting to believe I would be better off dead. Cool.

My Pain Is Your Gain

Um. Bruises, splints and medication, oh my?

That Moment

You know that moment when you realize that your world has settled itself into the place that you hoped it wouldnt be, and stuck itself on the bookcase in your room for you to stare at every night before you go to bed?

I am questioning things now. i realize i'm forgiving and forgetting way to easily, but that is who i am now under those circumstances. I'm starting to look around, and its making me both fasinated and terrified to open my eyes.

And I can't stop sleeping. we know why, i have always known why, but i keep trying to keep myself from sleeping because i cant avoid m problems, and in the end i succum to them and start to dream. wtf.

Fuck these moments. They tire me out.

Like I said, Ruined My Day

I honestly feel like I am doing the right thing by moving on. But I feel like I am leaving a bit of myself behind. Some of the best experiences happened there. I climbed on roofs, found myself as a leader, had a romance or two, and made some pretty cakes. I'm angry that it ended like this, messing up my summer and my self confidence and my pride. It bruised my heart, and I don't know if I'll ever get over it. My life changed in two minutes. And it won't be the same again.

Ruined My Day

Hard conversations are happening. I don't want to sue anyone, but I want them to be ashamed.