Forever Lonely... lol

That awkward moment you're always the third wheel. I mean, tricycles are cool when all the wheels work together, but after a while, the front wheel realized the two back are pretty close, and you're as shunned as the big girl in Dreamgirls lol

Winter Break

Curls of no return: getting two piercings in painful spots just to feel it and show it off.

Curls of no return: leaving break a week early to go west and present a scene design.

Curls of no return: feeling my heart break a little more at each goodbye.

Keeping calm.

keeping calm. Coffee on. Thread the needle. Tell the story.

If I Hit You With My Car

If I had hit you with my car a coupe of years ago, I think I would hae stopped the car in shock, thought about it, shrugged, and backed over you again. Double tap.

when I get Worried

When I get worried I make a huge deal out of something that isnt important and I dont say anything at all to what is actually a huge deal to me.

Some mysteries in the brain of a woman I will never understand. I am not immune.

Further Down

Because I said what I said, I am even more unhappy than i thought it would be. I need to take things one step at a time. I'm so alone.

Down.

I was on this happy high of life because I felt so confident. And then i realize, I cut my life off for you, but I dont get i back. I am settling because I am afraid to go further and to lose you. and now that I have told you.

Well.

It just hit me that my life is apparently nothing. because I wont let it be what I want it to be.

All of a sudden I feel so. alone. because everyone else I know has that support of arms and heart, and I am so far. and there is no compromise. and I let myself lower myself because I thought I was happy.

I think I am happy.
am I?

Waiting.

My mother was right when she said love is about patience. I've only seen my love four times this semester in person. and I have to wait until Sunday to be able to see him for an hour. But after all that waiting and pain, those moments turn out to be some of the best memories of my life.

I will sleep with a smile on my face because of this opening night

Tricking for Treating

Can one trick the body into being what it wants to be?

For instance, can I trick my body into feeling full? Can I trick my mind into being free? Can I trick my skin into being clear? Can I trick my lips not to chap?

Illusions seem to be the best thing for people. It keeps the world turning: the influence and illusions the media plays on us, the illusions our parents pull when trying to hide information, and even the illusion played on us during peek-a-boo.

I want to trick my body into believing I can achieve my goals.