All humans breathe, a very natural motion
It regulates your heartbeat, it regulates the mood
As I lay there, listening to your heartbeat,
I hear your breathing, calm, steady in sleep
The world, it's troubles fade away, and I realize
This is what I've always wanted.
There are too many things we take for granted
We take advantage of the mind set of home.
As I lay there, listening to you breathing
The rise and fall of your chest-
I know that's where I always want to be
By your side, in your view, breathing beside you.
This is what I've always wanted.
The thoughts of a twenty one year old insane girl as she battles against angst, overeating, waking up in time for class, and staring too long at the sun.
Monday, November 18, 2013
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Did You Ever Write About Me?
A simple question
That makes me smile-
This simple question is very complicated.
Did I ever write anything about you?
Have I ever written anything about you?
When haven't I written about you?
All of those dreams that I produced as a child
Once looked so distant from my grasp
All of those late night cries from
The frustration of thinking I would never feel normal-
The world gave me you.
When haven't I written about you?
Those days when I dazed and thought of your eyes
Those last nights when I pondered the curve of your hand
That day when I could finally close my eyes and feel safe
These memories of wishing I could have told you
And that moment I realized all of the roads in life led to you-
I have always written about you.
That makes me smile-
This simple question is very complicated.
Did I ever write anything about you?
Have I ever written anything about you?
When haven't I written about you?
All of those dreams that I produced as a child
Once looked so distant from my grasp
All of those late night cries from
The frustration of thinking I would never feel normal-
The world gave me you.
When haven't I written about you?
Those days when I dazed and thought of your eyes
Those last nights when I pondered the curve of your hand
That day when I could finally close my eyes and feel safe
These memories of wishing I could have told you
And that moment I realized all of the roads in life led to you-
I have always written about you.
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Depressing
Even after years of living, I still wish I was normal. I wish I could be in a normal relationship, with normal values. I wish I actually wanted to. I wish I didnt have trust issues. I wish I actually liked relationships!
It's just so difficult for me to actually be normal. I am great at acting like it, but lately, more and more.... I do not want to act anymore. I want to be me, what I believe I should do.
Fuck. And the worst part is I cannot fix it, or even explain it to anyone, anyone in the world, without being the bad guy. Because I am the terrible, heartless, bitch, selfish woman I am.
It's just so difficult for me to actually be normal. I am great at acting like it, but lately, more and more.... I do not want to act anymore. I want to be me, what I believe I should do.
Fuck. And the worst part is I cannot fix it, or even explain it to anyone, anyone in the world, without being the bad guy. Because I am the terrible, heartless, bitch, selfish woman I am.
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