Everyone says it could be worse, but i see it as already terrible.

I stood up against hate. I feel invigorated now.

Property.

Sometimes Max Bemis tells it like it is. these are his words.

Propery, by Say Anything

Don't you go leaving
Baby I'll find you
Tell all your secrets
No one will want you
It's for your own good
I know what's best for you
If you won't sleep with me
There'll be no rest for you

Until the day you're broke
Until you drop and choke
I'll be your man
This much I know
Until the empire falls
Until you think it all

You gave your love to me
And now you are my property
You've sold your soul
You can't retrieve the love I stole from you
It's true, deny with everything you do
You're my property
You're my property

Sell you into bondage
Baby I own you
You'll entertain all my friends
Dressed in the latest trendy frocks
You better tattoo that I am your patriarch
X your ambition
Soon you will fear the dark
Cause I work in your bed
Till the day you see
That you mean nothing to me
Until the day I find
Someone to fall in line
Without a single sin
Without an opinion

You gave your love to me
And now you are my property
You've sold your soul
You can't retrieve the love I stole from you
It's true, deny with everything you do
You're my property
You're my property

Baby, I know you've got all those crazy, lofty goals
Going to art school and following your dreams an whatnot
Blah blah blah
Just throw it to the side
You know I can support us all on my own
And worst case, I'll just have to sell some drugs to my little brother's friends
If you do have to sell your body
Once, or twice, or seven times
It'll be worth it
And trust me, one day my band is gonna make it
And this will all be just a distant, distant, dream

Until the earth's removed
Or daddy don't approve
Whatever happens first
Depending on my mood


You gave your love to me
And now you are my property
You've sold your soul
You can't retrieve the love I stole from you
It's true, deny with everything you do
You're my property
You're my property
You're my property
Hahahahahahaha

Shatter.

Bittersweet memories of broken glass.

the shards crushed under our hurried feet.

Whispering cracks that shed the wind between them.

and the sadness of a lost comfort sphere, caked in red.

Small, hard, and cutting.

College Tomorrow

Hardest car ride home alone ever. Knowing the life im leaving behind, and the empty room i was going home to. I probably almost crashed, but i couldnt see. The tears were too thick.

Rosemary sea salt foccatchia. Lemon walnut scone. Apricot, strawberry, and crunchy sugar butters.

I love my hair... When it listens

Twenty four days til college.

Definition

Fast living: coasting through your life on high speed, as you are afraid of the commitment, persuasion, and promice of finally stopping to smell the flowers and ponder why you are doing this.

Sometimes I Feel Like a Failure (05-13-10)

Sometimes i feel like a failure.
life has been a tug of war, and i am
pulled to lose, whether i want to or not

subtly pulled by an invisible thread of light
with an unwillingness to actually wake in the morn
sometimes i feel like a failure.

although sometimes, i gather my strength and leap
it seems the inch i percieved is a really a mile, and i'm
pulled to lose, whether i want to or not.

possiblities pass you by, the days seem endless.
my emotions are pulled too and fro like a pendulem-
sometimes i feel like a failure

Everything else just doesnt appear to matter
if i lose myself in my focus, and if i lose it i'm
pulled to lose, whether i want to or not.

I'm disappointed in myself, others disappointed in me.
i'm silently screaming, forlorn and lost in sadness.
sometimes i feel like a failure
pulled to lose, whether i want to or not.